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Welcome To My Micro Blog
6/7/25 22:30 - I cannot believe "That storm keeps on raging, but don't you forget God's not done with you yet." Is the line from Bloodline that's trending when "You stay up counting down the days 'til you make your escape. But you're afraid you can't outrun what's running through your veins." IS RIGHT THERE.
5/23/25 4:15 - "Oh, you're so lucky you don't have to work yet." "Enjoy it while it lasts." "I want to be able to sit in my room and do nothing all day too."
I WANT TO MOVE ACROSS THE WORLD. I HATE THIS.
I hate when people act like sitting around doing nothing 24/7 is something to aspire to. I'm miserable. And I get it, they're miserable with their job. But please, I need them to stop acting like this situation is something I enjoy. I hate it. I want a job. I want to be able to have the money to live my dreams. I don't like being 100% reliant on my parents and if they agree to something. It's horrible.
Sure, I don't have to pay rent and I don't have to pay for food or for anything for that matter. But I am paying for it with every hope and dream I've ever had slowly becoming less and less likely.
5/21/25 4:15 - I'm 19 and yet still I wake up in a panic as if I were a 5 year old who had dream. The only difference is now it's embarassing. Children are expected to wake up and be too fearful to fall back to sleep. Past a certain age it becomes unusual. My nightmares aren't of monsters anymore. Not the mythical kind, anyway. The people they are about are what I would consider the closest I have met to being a real life monster, however.
The few people I've mentioned it to say it's normal considering the topic of these nightmares but it doesn't feel normal. Waking up with my heart beating a mile a minute, feeling pure fear and panic... It doesn't feel normal at all.
5/21/25 4:15 - Researching true crime being one of your favourite hobbies as a deeply paranoid person is not for the weak.